I’ve been scared for so long,
Afraid of being alone,
So I clung to friendships
That felt more like chains than home.
In the name of company,
I settled for less,
In relationships that broke me,
In bonds that caused stress.
I thought I needed others,
To fill up my days,
But instead, I lost myself
In a tangled, confusing maze.
I was chasing their laughter,
Drowning in their noise,
Forgetting that silence
Could also bring joys.
Being alone felt strange,
Like I was missing a part,
But really, it was my own self
I had pushed so far apart.
When quiet moments came,
All my flaws would appear,
The mistakes I had made,
The traumas I feared.
So I invited myself
Where I wasn’t meant to be,
Forcing connections
That weren’t right for me.
I found myself wondering,
“Why do they not see
That I’m worth more than this?
That I deserve to be free?”
But slowly, I started drifting,
Letting go of the noise,
Stepping back from conversations
That brought no real joys.
I stopped attending events
Where I wasn’t truly needed,
And let go of the calls
Where my heart felt unheeded.
I began a journey,
A path just for me,
To spend time in my own thoughts,
To let my soul be free.
I learned that being quiet,
Alone with my mind,
Could be a therapeutic space,
A place where peace I could find.
At first, it felt lonely,
Awkward, and strange,
But little by little,
I felt the shift, the change.
I started to appreciate
The beauty of my own space,
Finding comfort in my presence,
In the quiet embrace.
I learned to love me more,
To embrace all my flaws,
To recognize my worth,
To celebrate my cause.
I found that self-care isn’t selfish,
But a gift we should give,
A way to show ourselves
That we deserve to live.
Now, I feel more comfortable,
In my skin, in my heart,
No longer forcing connections,
But letting life play its part.
I’ve learned to choose wisely,
To surround myself with light,
With those who truly value
The love I have in sight.
So here’s to the journey,
To finding my way home,
To embracing my own company,
To being happy alone.
I’m grateful for this growth,
For the lessons I’ve gained,
For the love I found within,
Where true strength has remained.
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