I\u2019ve been scared for so long,
Afraid of being alone,
So I clung to friendships
That felt more like chains than home.
In the name of company,
I settled for less,
In relationships that broke me,
In bonds that caused stress.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I thought I needed others,
To fill up my days,
But instead, I lost myself
In a tangled, confusing maze.
I was chasing their laughter,
Drowning in their noise,
Forgetting that silence
Could also bring joys.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Being alone felt strange,
Like I was missing a part,
But really, it was my own self
I had pushed so far apart.
When quiet moments came,
All my flaws would appear,
The mistakes I had made,
The traumas I feared.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So I invited myself
Where I wasn\u2019t meant to be,
Forcing connections
That weren\u2019t right for me.
I found myself wondering,
\u201cWhy do they not see
That I\u2019m worth more than this?
That I deserve to be free?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But slowly, I started drifting,
Letting go of the noise,
Stepping back from conversations
That brought no real joys.
I stopped attending events
Where I wasn\u2019t truly needed,
And let go of the calls
Where my heart felt unheeded.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I began a journey,
A path just for me,
To spend time in my own thoughts,
To let my soul be free.
I learned that being quiet,
Alone with my mind,
Could be a therapeutic space,
A place where peace I could find.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At first, it felt lonely,
Awkward, and strange,
But little by little,
I felt the shift, the change.
I started to appreciate
The beauty of my own space,
Finding comfort in my presence,
In the quiet embrace.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I learned to love me more,
To embrace all my flaws,
To recognize my worth,
To celebrate my cause.
I found that self-care isn\u2019t selfish,
But a gift we should give,
A way to show ourselves
That we deserve to live.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now, I feel more comfortable,
In my skin, in my heart,
No longer forcing connections,
But letting life play its part.
I\u2019ve learned to choose wisely,
To surround myself with light,
With those who truly value
The love I have in sight.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So here\u2019s to the journey,
To finding my way home,
To embracing my own company,
To being happy alone.
I\u2019m grateful for this growth,
For the lessons I\u2019ve gained,
For the love I found within,
Where true strength has remained.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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