She preferred the noise\u2026
Because in the quiet, the thoughts got too loud.
And trust me, no one tells you how heavy silence can be,
When your heart is screaming things your mouth can\u2019t say.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
See, the world moves fast, and she learned to keep up.
Laugh a little louder, talk a little longer,
Stay busy, always busy,
Because if she stopped\u2026 even for a second\u2026
Everything she was trying to escape would come rushing in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s funny, isn\u2019t it?
How you can be surrounded by people, music blasting, phones buzzing,
Yet still feel\u2026 empty.
But for her? That noise?
It was a shield.
A distraction.
A way to drown out the parts of her story she didn\u2019t want to hear again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Because when it got quiet\u2026
That\u2019s when the memories crept in.
The mistakes she wished she could undo,
The words she never said,
The love she lost,
And the pain she pretended didn\u2019t hurt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So, she filled the silence.
With laughter that didn\u2019t always reach her eyes,
With conversations that danced on the surface,
Never too deep, because deep meant feeling.
And feeling? That was dangerous.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s easier to turn up the volume than face what\u2019s broken inside.
Easier to laugh with strangers than sit alone with the truth.
And she wasn\u2019t ready for the truth\u2026
Not yet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Because if she faced it,
If she really sat with the weight of everything\u2026
Would she survive it?
Would the tears ever stop if she let them fall?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So, she stayed in the noise.
Crowded places, loud music, endless scrolling,
Anything to avoid being alone with herself.
Because in the noise, no one asks if you\u2019re okay.
In the noise, no one sees the cracks beneath the smile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But here\u2019s the thing\u2026
You can only outrun yourself for so long.
The noise won\u2019t heal you, it only hides you.
And sooner or later, the silence will catch up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
One day, when the music fades and the voices go quiet,
When the lights go out and the world slows down,
She\u2019ll have to face it.
The fear.
The pain.
The truth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But maybe, just maybe,
In that silence, she\u2019ll find strength.
In that stillness, she\u2019ll realize her screams don\u2019t define her.
And instead of drowning in the noise,
She\u2019ll learn to heal\u2026 in the quiet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Until then, she keeps moving, keeps talking, keeps laughing
Because for now\u2026
The noise is easier.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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