{"id":3294,"date":"2025-05-05T12:38:28","date_gmt":"2025-05-05T12:38:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/walkingshadowpoetry.com\/blog\/?p=3294"},"modified":"2025-05-05T12:38:30","modified_gmt":"2025-05-05T12:38:30","slug":"life-without-you-has-not-been-easy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/walkingshadowpoetry.com\/blog\/life-without-you-has-not-been-easy\/","title":{"rendered":"Life without you has not been easy."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>We didn\u2019t plan to fall apart.<br>At first, it was small,<br>a word,<br>a glance,<br>a moment where we misunderstood each other.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gradually, silence grew<br>where love once lived out loud.<br>You thought I didn\u2019t care.<br>Meanwhile, I believed I was right.<br>However, the truth was simpler:<br>we both hurt,<br>but neither of us said it out loud.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I kept replaying our last conversation,<br>not to point fingers,<br>but to understand my part.<br>And honestly,<br>I saw where I failed.<br>Instead of listening,<br>I let pride speak.<br>When you needed closeness,<br>I pulled away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It wasn\u2019t that I stopped loving you,<br>on the contrary,<br>I just didn\u2019t know how to love well<br>in the middle of my own chaos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>After you left,<br>I told myself I\u2019d be okay.<br>For a while,<br>I believed it.<br>Still, your memory stayed.<br>Every smile we shared,<br>every laugh we once had,<br>they followed me<br>like unfinished music in my mind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Because of that,<br>I started changing.<br>Not to win you back,<br>but to face myself.<br>There were pieces of me<br>that needed healing,<br>not just for us,<br>but for me too.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Eventually, I realized<br>that I had lost something real.<br>Something rare.<br>So when I came back,<br>I didn\u2019t come with empty words.<br>Instead, I brought the version of me<br>you always deserved.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Even though you had every reason<br>to walk away for good,<br>you left the door slightly open,<br>just enough for hope to peek in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>So now, I\u2019m not asking to erase the past.<br>Rather, I\u2019m asking to learn from it.<br>To grow from it.<br>To love through it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You gave me another chance,<br>and I know how much that cost.<br>For that, I won\u2019t take your heart lightly.<br>From this moment on,<br>I\u2019ll show up differently.<br>With intention.<br>With effort.<br>With love that stays especially when things get hard.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yes, I let you down before.<br>But now, I know better.<br>And because I know better,<br>I\u2019ll do better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>No more running.<br>No more games.<br>No more making you feel like you&#8217;re not enough.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>In the end,<br>this is the love I want to fight for.<br>Not just with words,<br>but with action.<br>With patience.<br>With truth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>So, if you\u2019re still willing\u2026<br>Then this time,<br>I\u2019ll do it right.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/share\/v\/1ZWPMP5Cr2\">https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/share\/v\/1ZWPMP5Cr2<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/walkingshadowpoetry.com\/blog\/i-wanted-to-be-wrong-about-you-turns-out-i-was-right\/\">\u201cI Wanted to Be Wrong About You-Turns Out, I Was Right\u201d<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe title=\"WALKING SHADOW POETRY by Precious Owoko\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/6rUm2y-pNsE?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>We didn\u2019t plan to fall apart.At first, it was small,a word,a glance,a moment where we misunderstood each other. 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