For so long, I lived in fear,
Afraid of being alone, drawing near
To friendships that felt forced,
Relationships that were broken and coarse.
I thought being with others would fill the void,
But deep down, my heart felt destroyed.
I chased company like a lost little child,
Filling my life with connections so mild.
I forced smiles in places I wasn’t meant to be,
Staying where I wasn’t wanted, just to feel free.
But each time I left, I felt emptier still,
Trapped in a cycle, against my own will.
When I was alone, my mind would race,
Bringing up flaws, mistakes I’d face.
Traumas resurfaced in the quiet of night,
A constant reminder of my inner fight.
I struggled to sit with myself, to just be,
As the weight of my past closed in on me.
I invited myself to places I’d rather not go,
Clung to conversations that didn’t really flow.
I sought validation from those who didn’t care,
Finding myself lost in a world full of despair.
But slowly, I began to realize,
That being alone didn’t have to feel like a disguise.
I started to drift from those empty chats,
Letting go of events where I didn’t fit in like a hat.
I stepped back from calls that felt like a chore,
No longer clinging to friendships that left me sore.
Instead, I took time to explore my own heart,
To understand my needs and give myself a fresh start.
It was scary at first, learning to be me,
Facing my thoughts, setting my spirit free.
But slowly, I found the joy in my own company,
In the quiet moments, I learned to just be.
Self-care became my new friend, my retreat,
And I started to see my worth, felt complete.
Now I celebrate my own space and my time,
Understanding that solitude can feel so sublime.
I love myself more, embrace who I am,
No longer forcing connections, no need for a sham.
I’ve learned that being alone isn’t sad or wrong,
It’s a chance to find strength, to grow and belong.
So here’s to the journey of finding my way,
To appreciating myself more with each passing day.
No more fears of being alone or unloved,
Just a heart full of peace, and a spirit ungloved.
I am learning to cherish the quiet and still,
To nurture my soul and follow my will.
I’m more comfortable now, right here in my skin,
No longer chasing others, I’m ready to begin.
So here’s to me, my journey, my quest,
In learning to love myself, I’ve found my true rest.
It’s a beautiful path, and I’m ready to roam,
For now, I know that I’m finally home.
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