So…
I’ve been thinking.
And honestly,
I need to tell you something,
even if it’s a little hard to say.
Lately,
everything feels like too much.
Not just us,
but life, in general.
You see,
when we talk a lot,
I start to feel overwhelmed.
At first, I’m all in.
But after a while,
my mind fills up.
And then,
the words slip right through me.
It’s not because I’m not listening.
Actually,
I’m trying really hard to.
But sometimes,
my head can’t keep up with my heart.
That’s why,
I think we should ease up on the calls.
Instead,
let’s text more.
That way,
I can take my time.
I can think.
I can respond with a clear mind,
rather than just nodding on the phone,
while my brain checks out.
To be clear,
it’s not that I don’t enjoy hearing your voice,
I do.
However,
too much at once
feels like I’m carrying more than I can hold.
Besides,
there’s something else I need to be honest about.
And this part’s not easy to say.
The more we talk,
the closer I feel.
And truthfully,
I’m scared I might fall for you.
But right now,
I’m not ready for that.
Not because of you,
but because of where I’m at with myself.
At the moment,
I’m still learning how to carry my own feelings
before I carry someone else’s.
So for now,
I need to go slow.
I need to protect my peace,
and maybe yours too.
Even so,
this doesn’t mean I’m walking away.
On the contrary,
I value this.
I care about you.
That’s exactly why
I want to be honest with you.
Moving too fast
might ruin something that could’ve been beautiful
if we just gave it time.
Therefore,
I hope we can still stay connected,
just not in a way that costs us our calm.
Let’s keep it simple.
Let’s keep it kind.
Let’s keep it real.
Because in the end,
honesty is better than pretending.
And space,
when given with care,
can actually bring people closer.
So yeah…
I’m still here.
Just at a different pace.
And hopefully,
that’s okay.
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