I hear your words, look at your pictures online every chance I get.
and every line feels like a mirror I’ve been running from.
Yes,
you’re right.
I lost you.
I lost the girl who gave me more than I deserved,
the one who fought for me while I was busy fighting my own pride.
I see it now,
how you carried me when I should have carried you,
how you stayed when I gave you reasons to walk.
And the truth is,
I thought you’d never leave.
I thought your love was endless,
that no matter how many times I failed,
you’d still be there.
But love isn’t a prison,
and hearts don’t heal when they’re ignored.
I remember the way you looked at me,
like I was enough, even when I wasn’t.
And I threw it away.
I let my ego speak louder than your silence,
and my silence spoke louder than the “I love yous” you needed to hear.
Now…
your absence is heavy.
Your laughter doesn’t echo in my world anymore,
and the warmth you carried is gone.
And yes, you haunt me.
Not as a ghost,
but as a reminder of what I destroyed with my own hands.
You deserved better,
and you found it.
And while it kills me to imagine you smiling for someone else,
I know you earned that happiness,
because I couldn’t give it to you.
So here I stand,
not asking for forgiveness,
not begging for a second chance,
just admitting the truth:
I was a fool.
And if loving you was my test,
then losing you was my lesson.
it is the hardest lesson I ever learnt I guess they were right when they said that you only miss the sun when it starts to snow, only know your lover when you let her go.
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Walking Shadow Poetry – Grow from what’s meant to kill you.
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