A dream which I had longed was never being alone,
I had no one to call my own,
Smile to me was rare than frown,
A queen bearing pain and rejection as a crown,
The laughing stalk, so was given a nickname” clown.”
All these happened immediately I got a smart phone.
I was trying to be among some group so that I may fit in,
Trying clothing’s which were fitting and a daily facial routine,
Careful not to upload a video without consulting my fellow teen,
Avoiding being fat so I don’t take food at school but only snacks from the canteen,
How I looked mattered to me and was my source of defense,
Honestly, I was more scared of committing any offence.
Many hidden pains causing ulcers in my belly,
Friends don’t know why I look pale suddenly,
Eyes popping out of its socket,
Not only for the money scarce in my pocket
But also had zero experience concerning the love of a parent,
I’m a wandering soul in the forest.
I was scared of being without any social media platforms,
Always venturing into the latest digital transformation forms,
The trending celebrities and clothes in town whom I have developed interest,
Trending anything and everything that I can copy and paste,
I could not admit that I have finally become an addict,
Who was just Buying a little more time in their closet.
I needed something like my own company or brand,
To avoid following others yet my life was stagnant,
Writing down who I was, was what I did for a start,
Working on my talents and skills is what I will never regret,
My potential I decided I will ensure I maximize,
Myself and my mental health is what I did prioritize,
Through my talents, skills and abilities that will make me have a busy mind.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rose,
With this poverty, rejection and shame
I rose,
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
I rose,
Having or not having any brand name,
I rose,
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I rose,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
So, I had no option but to rise.
I Realized the way to control this technology manipulation,
Is to kill this fear and lack of self- motivation by embracing my passion,
Managed to control my phone by managing all the application,
I did not allow myself to experience any form of dissatisfaction,
Finally, I was able to overcome every form of addiction,
Since I was greater than this gadget and much more that will be brought by digitalization.
Greatness, creativity and success is my portion and source of Navigation.
Walking Shadow Poetry Kenya
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