You said you wanted something casual,
Something simple, no strings attached.
But I wasn’t ready for that.
I’ve been hurt too many times before,
And the last thing I want this year
Is to be just an option.
A backup plan.
Someone who’s there only when it’s convenient.
It wasn’t easy to accept the way things were,
To look at your reasons and say,
“Yeah, I get it. It makes sense.”
But deep down, I knew…
I deserve more.
I’ve realized that I’ve been holding on
To expectations that weigh me down.
Hopes so high they block the view of reality.
And now, I need to let go
Let go of the “what ifs” and “maybes,”
And start focusing on what’s real.
No need to apologize.
No need for regrets.
We did what we thought was right at the time.
And maybe, just maybe,
This was meant to happen,
To teach me how strong I can be,
Or how weak I actually am.
Life doesn’t promise to be fair.
Every person we meet plays a role,
Some to lift us up,
Others to teach us lessons we didn’t know we needed.
And you?
You weren’t a mistake.
Not even close.
You were a moment, a chapter,
One I’m grateful to have read,
Even if it didn’t end the way I hoped.
We’re still friends
At least, that’s what we agreed.
But let’s be honest,
Boundaries have to exist.
Because without them,
Someone will end up hurt,
And this time, I refuse to be the one bleeding.
Your reasons were valid.
I see that now.
But if I kept holding on,
I’d be stuck in a relationship alone,
Fighting battles only I cared to win.
So, here I am.
Learning to walk away,
Not because I want to,
But because I have to.
For me.
It’s not easy to let go,
To watch the memories play like old reruns,
To see you smiling with someone else.
But I’ve learned this:
Holding on to pain only keeps me stuck,
And I want to move forward.
This year, I’m choosing me.
My peace, my worth, my happiness.
It’s not selfish, it’s necessary.
And maybe one day,
I’ll look back and thank this moment
For teaching me how to love myself first.
For now, I take it one step at a time,
One breath, one day,
Hoping that the weight will get lighter,
And the path ahead will get clearer.
Because this?
This is my story,
And I’m ready to write the next chapter.
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